Confession...

I am a selfish person. I carry a lot of pride in myself and I often think of the benefits to me and not others.

I was reading about the King stage of the masculine journey today and something in there really convicted me...a King does everything for the benefit of others. It made me think about my reasons for doing a lot of things that I do, and I felt that I had to share this confession...get it out there for all to see as an act of humility. You see there are a lot of times people would ask me to do something and I would ask myself, "What's in it for me?" If I saw that there was a benefit to me: people would notice me, I'd get to meet certain people, I would be publicly recognized, I'd win something, only then would I agree to it.

Doing this triathlon is a huge step on my road to a humble heart. First, there's the whole issue of winning. I tend to shy away from things that I know I won't win. That was the first step. Then there's the training. I knew from the start that it would be hard work, but I can handle it. I'm an athlete...and humbly speaking, a pretty good one. Well, here I sit at the end of week 1 of training and I'm hurting: physically and emotionally. I've got a long road ahead of me, but by God's grace and strength and I'll get through. I can't get through this on my own...but I've got the King of kings on my side.

Soli Deo Gloria